Pairing: Eli/Dongho. Rating: PG13(to be safe). Genre: Friendship to a little bit of Angst to Romance. Summary: Dongho realizes that Eli likes him more than a best friend. And he realizes the same.
I throw the baseball as hard as I can, sweat dripping down my neck, dry throat, determination, that was what baseball did to me. Especially when Eli came to watch me practice.
Eli and I have been best friends. Nothing more. For the first few years he treated me like a son, to a brother, now it's like a friend that could be your age. But the truth was he was older than me by a few years. He was a pure adult, while I was still in middle school.
I don't exactly know how he managed to freely say, "This is my best friend in the world, Shin Dongho" to every single person I never met. He was so open about us being friends and he always protected me from ignorant people.
And I still always felt comfortable even after that one night. That one... interesting night.
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Eli was a tad drunk, so he was basically being a bit weird. Then, when I was just talking, he asked me if I had a girlfriend. After saying that I didn't he got personal with me. I couldn't be freaked out because we were best friends; we told each other everything. he asked me if I was still a virgin and I just nodded. Then he wrapped his arm around me and he suddenly kissed me. At first I had no idea what to do so I just stood like that. We were both on the couch and I was literally pinned on the armrest.
After he pulled away he froze and muttered, "I'm...I'm so sorry, Dongho." His eyes started to water and I tried to tell him something but he got up and walked into his room.
I thought it would be best if I just left his house, so I did. That night I was talking to my other friend Kiseop and asked him what it meant if a drunk...person kissed you and walked away saying sorry.
"Then... either they didn't mean to or they wanted to do that for awhile but never had the guts."
Getting the word that Eli had always wanted to kiss me made me feel strange. And thinking about his lips on mine made me want to barf. It wasn't that he was a bad guy, but I just never saw him in that way.
All this time I thought we were just friends.
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It had been about 1 month since it happened, yet Eli was still cheering me on at my practice. After practice my mom let me go to his house so we could hang out. Eli and I ate dinner, played games, and I just left. I didn't notice anything because after the incident when he kissed me he was weird. So when I confronted him he said his work was giving him a hard time. Of course, being best friends, I believed him.
The next day I caught the flu when my older brother came to visit us and his kid had the flu. So, I stayed in. No school, no practice, and I was thinking no Eli.
But my best friend showed up to take care of me.
Eli called in sick at his work just so my parents could leave and he could be with me. You don't know how heartwarming yet weird that felt to me. Of course he did some amazing things for me like save my life from the kiddie pool, or bought me the newest baseball bat in town, or when I was about to be bullied on my first day of middle school. But this made me feel happier.
He was feeding me, bringing me games, books, all that. It was a bit more fun than I imagined having him with me. But there was something in his eyes that told me he didn't enjoy any of this like I thought he did. So finally I truly asked him why his eyes were dead.
He just answered, "Oh. I'm just sleep deprived."
I never knew why, but whatever he said I always believed. I don't know if it was what he said, how he said it, or if it was how he looked at me when he did.
So there, I just dropped it completely.
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The next day, I felt sick. Not like flu-sick, but something deeper. Like my heart was crying and shouting that something happened. I got out of bed, feeling better thanks to Eli, and I saw a note on the kitchen counter.
~Dongho, I just wanted to say I'm leaving today. My job transferred me to America and I had to go. I don't think I'll ever be back. So, I just wanted to tell you that I love you, I always loved you. Not like a father-to-son, not like a brother, or even a friend, but much more. I tried to deny it, but I couldn't after the night I kissed you. I finally realized. I'm sorry, you must hate me right now. Anyway, good luck on life, Dongho. Love, your best friend in the world, Eli.
You could never know the pain in my chest, how much it hurt me. I fell to my knees and cried so hard that my parents came in and I told them everything that happened between Eli and I from the past month. I even told them that I never thought I felt this way for him, and they understood.
But them caring about me could never compare...to my best friend Eli.
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I couldn't remember what happened the night before, but then it hit me. I kissed Dongho, my best friend for years. I remembered crying to sleep and dreaming of him. And it hurt so much.
I ran out of my room but Dongho was nowhere to be found. I called his cell phone but thought that he was either avoiding me or sleeping. I didn't know whether it was avoiding because he obviously didn't drink so he had to remember, or sleeping because we were up late.
I decided to visit his house later on because it was 5AM, and I also had a small hangover.
After taking my time getting ready and all, I left the house, got into my car, and nervously drove to Dongho's place. I got very anxious if he told anyone. I mean, I was 23 and he was 17. The rushing pain and anxiety made my head hurt but I didn't want to crash my car...on the second thought I wouldn't mind doing it after if Dongho hated me.
I parked on the sidewalk and noticed Dongho and his parents walking outside of their house. I froze, gulping. But I still got out of my car with a casual expression.
"Oh, Eli!" Dongho mother said.
That was probably a sign that he hadn't told anyone.
"Oh, hello, Eli," his father bowed to me.
I bowed back before asking, "May I speak with Dongho for a minute? It won't be long."
"Of course."
Dongho and I went into the house and I blurted, "I'm so sorry for what I did last night, Dongho."
Dongho nodded with a small smile. "It's okay, Eli. you were drunk. I understand."
His eye twitched so I asked, "What wrong?"
I could tell he was trying to think hard for a lie. But he was easy to read for me since I was a good liar and he wasn't. "Oh, nothing. I'm tired."
I decided to let it slip. "So, you're not mad?"
"No, 'course not. Plus, it was nice having my first kiss with someone I trust."
I felt my stomach churn with glee inside, that made my day complete.
However, on that night I had just found out that I was going to be transferred pretty soon. So I wanted to spend my very last few weeks with Dongho, even if I'm depressed I want him happy when I leave.
I was debating on if I should tell him, I decided not to because I didn't want to do something rash. So I had to hide many of the boxes full of my stuff in the garage or other rooms.
After finding out he was sick, I decided to be with him. I called my work and said I needed to pack a lot of things so I needed the day off and they accepted. But when I got to Dongho's house and he asked if I had to work I answered, "I called in sick so I could take care of you."
Throughout the day I did so many things for him because I wrote a note. It took 2 hours to write the note because I didn't know what to say. To make it small, long, precise, detailed, etc. I decided to keep it small and a bit to the point.
After he went to sleep and his parents invited me for dinner, I left the note on the counter knowing no one would find it. And then I just left.
But not without crying for a few hours.
~_~
A few years later, Dongho was walking around the airport for his older brother. Dongho was now 21 and working the job Eli left behind before. Sometimes being in there did exhaust him and he swore he felt Eli's presence, but he left it.
He noticed his brother, they hugged and all that, but someone else caught his eye.
"Eli?"
Eli, now blond, turned around from his girl friend Sunny and his eyes widened. "D-Dongho?"
Dongho's brother, who heard about Dongho's feelings for Eli, smiled. Dongho pulled him forward and said, "You remember Eli, right?"
"Of course! You two rascals being all secretive."
Sunny asked Eli with a big smile, knowing Eli's feelings for Dongho, "Is this Dongho?"
Eli brought her forward and replied, "Yes. Sunny this is his brother Soohyun. And this..." Eli looked straight into Dongho's eyes with a small smile, "...is my best friend in the world Dongho."
Dongho jumped into Eli's arms without hesitation and Sunny and Soohyun decided to leave the two alone. "I missed you so much, Eli."
"I missed you too."
Dongho pulled away but kissed Eli passionately, hands on Eli's neck so he couldn't pull away. Eli firmly held Dongho's small waist and groaned under the kiss. Dongho pulled away and warned, "Don't. You. Ever leave me again, Eli."
Eli smiled with pure happiness, "I won't."
Dongho kissed him again and said right after, "I love you, Kim Eli Kyoungjae."
"I love you too, Shin Dongho."
Sunny and Soohyun just watched from afar with smiles on their faces. They were finally happy that the two were finally no longer just best friends in the world, but more than that.
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-Fin
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Traveling Heart (KyuHae.OneShot.Yaoi)
It's about one heart being passed down, and in the end it will be a new heart. Who's will it be? Warning: semi-sex-scenes, yaoi, maybe small cursing, angst, character death.
Year 1800, Ancient Korea
(When Kyuhyun was 19 and Donghae was 21.)
Kyuhyun let the male on top insert his hard member inside of him, he moaned in pain yet unbeatable pleasure. "H-hae...keep going...!"
Donghae went deeper inside the boy and moaned lightly at how good and real this felt. He wrapped his hand on the younger's member and jerked him off.
Kyuhyun's moans were loud, but he was sure no one would hear them. Donghae said to keep moaning and Kyuhyun obeyed.
Donghae admitted he didn't like the boy at first, but feelings do change.
(When Kyuhyun was 17 and Donghae was 19.)
Donghae was merely a peasant, but a very good looking one. He had so many girls that wanted him, but he wasn't interested in either of them.
Kyuhyun was a prince and his grandfather and step-father had sent hundreds of beautiful women to him. But none he ever wanted.
Kyuhyun knew his grandfather was getting old but he really didn't know why each woman was...unappealing to him.
Donghae loved his family very much, but that wasn't enough. He had lived in a far place from the village, deep in the woods. He always wore black and he would cut off his sleeves [as we now call them undershirts] and he'd informally cut his pants [what we call shorts]. Girls mainly liked him for his wild side, every other man in the village was so..."blunt", they had said. He probably seemed rough when making tools to trade and sell, but really deep down...he was extremely lonely.
Kyuhyun hated being in the palace. But this time, he had wished he'd never went out. But, he was glad he did, only because he had met Donghae in the woods.
(When Kyuhyun was 18 and Donghae was 20.)
For a full year, after they met, they have grown so fond of each other. Also, they had begun in a relationship unknown to anyone. Donghae was always happy when he was with Kyuhyun, he felt less lonely. Kyuhyun was also happy, and he felt more free.
But it didn't last long, unfortunately.
(When Kyuhyun was 21 and Donghae was 23.)
The guard held the rope tighter on Kyuhyun's neck.
His step father asked, "I will ask you one more time, are you seeing someone."
Kyuhyun growled, "No!"
His grandfather solemnly held his hand and the guards through down a body but the body autimatically got up.
Kyuhyun thought, 'Donghae...'
Donghae thought, 'Kyuhyun...'
Kyuhyun's step father asked, "Are you or are you not seeing this man, as in an intimate relationship?"
Kyuhyun confirmed, "Yes. I love him."
Kyuhyun's step father was about to slap Kyuhyun but his grandfather softly objected, "No." He made a gesture that meant, "Take the boy away".
The guards roughly pulled Donghae away and Kyuhyun's heart beat faster.
His grandfather sadly said, "You...have failed me, my grandson."
He wanted Kyuhyun dismissed and the step father demanded, "Put him in the cell! That's where all the homos belong." He walked away in fury, leaving a pissed off Kyuhyun.
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Kyuhyun was in the cell for about 5 days, until his older step brother came back to the palace. Kyuhyun never wanted the crown, Hyukjae [also known as Eunhyuk] wanted it. But, Eunhyuk was a modest boy. Since Kyuhyun was blood related to his grandfather, he was assigned to take the throne.
Eunhyuk had demanded the guards to let Kyuhyun out of his cell and into his room so he can meet him properly, not in some garbage box.
After Kyuhyun was cleaned and sitting in the living room across from his step brother he asked, "Why?"
Eunhyuk smiled, "Because, we're brothers. I don't care who you fall for, even if it was a dog I would still love you. Got that, Kyu?"
Kyuhyun didn't nod, he didn't even look at him either when he asked, "Where is Donghae...?"
Eunhyuk solemnly looked down and said, "Step father killed him, Kyu. That's why... I killed step father. You guys are the reason why I'm here. Also, because of the throne."
Kyuhyun felt tears form in his eyes, "I don't care who grandfather decides to give it to. I have nothing else to lose."
"Kyuhyun."
Kyuhyun looked up to see his grandfather walking towards a chair near Eunhyuk.
His grandfather said, "Hyukjae, please dismiss yourself. I must speak privately with my grandson."
Eunhyuk bowed politely and left the room, slowly closing the doors for privacy.
"Now," Kyuhyun's grandfather's voice was obviously making him feel old, "Kyuhyun, I didn't know he would kill him. But, let me tell you how I know...that his heart is still alive somewhere."
Kyuhyun asked, "Wh-were?"
His grandfather sighed, "Did you know that...our family was cursed towards the ones we truly love?" Kyuhyun shook his head. "I loved your grandmother, she had died. Your father, he died because your mother loved him too much. Your step father loved your mother a lot and she died. Eunhyuk loved his died so much he ended up killing him because he killed...the one you truly love.""
Kyuhyun asked, "How come no one told me?"
"We hoped you would never find love. And...Donghae's heart...is in someone else's body. There is only one question you must again. I shall ask you because...it has to be your choice. Do you want the throne?"
Kyuhyun bitterly asked, "Does it really make a difference?"
"It does. The girl that you or Eunhyuk will marry...has Donghae's heart. If you say yes, you two will be married and her heart will be attracted to you. But, if you say no to this and don't marry her...the curse will be broken."
Kyuhyun's heart trembled and he said, "You know I loved him. Why should I let his heart be given to Eunhyuk?"
"Because the heart will die too, Kyuhyun. She will never truly love Eunhyuk, and since he isn't blood related to our curse, neither will die."
Kyuhyun took awhile to answer, "...No. Let Eunhyuk have the throne."
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(The year 2010, Kyuhyun is 16.)
Kyuhyun lived in a dorm with Sungmin Ryeowook, Yesung, Eunhyuk, and Daesook [Yesung's step sister and Eunhyuk's girlfriend]. Kyuhyun had been somewhat attracted to Daesook, and Daesook the same, but she felt...that she was destined to be with Eunhyuk.
It wasn't until later that Kyuhyun loved her so much that she ended up getting in a car crash. He knew it was his fault because all his life the ones he loved had died, which was why he promised he would never fall in love again.
Until the new dorm mate came along 2 years later.
(When Kyuhyun was 17 and Donghae was 19.)
Yesung smiled, "Everyone, this is an old friend of mine, Lee Donghae."
Once Kyuhyun laid eyes on him he could have sowrn it was that same "Daesook" attraction he had felt for her.
Days had went by and everyone noticed that Donghae and Kyuhyun had felt very...strange when they were near. And Eunhyuk felt like he was seeing another Daesook in the dorms.
When Donghae and Kyuhyun went out for some things to shop for, Donghae and Kyuhyun reached for the same book and Donghae blushed.
"Sorry." He took the book out and handed it to Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun froze for a milisecond but then shook his head. He handed it to Donghae and admitted, "I already read it. Here."
Donghae smiled and asked, "Really? Thanks. Was it any good?"
Kyuhyun teasingly said, "I'm not revealing anything."
Donghae pouted and said, "Fine then."
After they were done Donghae gasped, "Oops! I think I forgot something, Kyuhyun. Can you wait for me in the car?"
Kyuhyun obeyed and he was now sitting in the car for...5 minutes.
'Daesook would often forget things at the store and would ask us to stay in the car. And she would take 6 minutes max.' Kyuhyun thought.
Kyuhyun counted a few more seconds and saw Donghae slip inside the car. Kyuhyun thought, '6 minutes.'
Kyuhyun asked, "What'd you forget?"
Donghae blushed as he pulled out a box of cereal called "Fruity Pebbles". "I'm in love with this cereal, but I haven't had it in awhile and I was meaning to get it."
Kyuhyun thought, 'Daesook loved that cereal. Omo, he even...sounds like her.'
Donghae and Kyuhyun were silent as they drove back to the dorms. Donghae turned the car off and noticed Kyuhyun wasn't even moving. He asked, "Is there something wrong?"
Kyuhyun got out of his daze and shook his head. He got out, took some bags out of the car and headed inside the dorms, with Donghae following him.
While Kyuhyun was sleeping he awoke because he kept thinking about how similar Donghae was to Daesook. He got out of his bed and he headed for the kitchen. He should have expected this, but he didn't. Donghae was sitting on the table with a glass of water in his hands.
Kyuhyun thought, 'Daesook would often have nightmares and stay in the kitchen while drinking a glass of water.'
Kyuhyun went into the kitchen and took out a soda. He sat across from Donghae and asked, "Nightmares?"
Donghae asked, "How'd you know?"
Kyuhyun shook his head and took a gulp of his drink. He asked, "Can I...tell you something?"
Donghae nodded.
Kyuhyun muttered, "It has to be between us, though. Okay?"
"Okay."
Kyuhyun confessed, "Before you came to live with us, Yesung had a step sister named Daesook. For some reason, I really liked her, a lot. But her and Eunhyuk were together. I've always had this feeling if I loved someone too much, they'd die. It has happened over the years. So...I ended up falling for her so much, and...she died from a car crash."
Donghae asked, "Did she...ever know?"
Kyuhyun shook his head. "We barely knew each other, well she barely knew me. I knew everything about her. She...liked the same books I liked. She would often forget things at the store, ask us to wait in the car, and take 6 minutes to be done. She liked that Fruity Pebbles cereal a lot. She had a thing for having a naturally cute voice and blushing. And...she would often wake up from a nightmare and drink a glass of water to calm down."
Donghae looked down and said, "When did she die?"
Kyuhyun said, "March 14, 2009. Eunhyuk was taking her somewhere and it happened."
Donghae quietly said, "When I came here, I ended up getting a heart attack on March 14, 2009. I was in a coma for a few months. When I woke up, Yesung was by my side and he told me they had to replace my heart. When I came here, and I saw a picture of 'Daesook' in Eunhyuk's room, I asked him who she was and he said just someone.
"But, later on I wanted to know who's heart I had. And...it turned out to be Daesook's heart."
Kyuhyun's heart started to beat faster and harder. He asked, "Really?"
Donghae nodded.
(When Kyuhyun was 19 and Donghae was 21.)
They had tried their best to not be so awkward from time to time. Yesung couldn't take it anymore and he said, "Let's go out."
When Yesung ever says "out" it's usually really rare. But, he said it and everyone obeyed.
Donghae admitted he didn't really drink at all and Eunhyuk and Kyuhyun thought, 'Daesook never really drank either.'
Donghae felt a litte...left out since Sungmin and Eunhyuk were doing a dance battle and Yesung and Ryeowook were...somewhere[?] else.
He sat next to Kyuhyun and asked, "What are you drinking?"
Kyuhyun shrugged, "I don't even know, it just tastes good."
Donghae laughed and got the same thing. He admitted, "Wow, it really does taste good."
They drank a few more and the next thing they knew they were kissing as if they were together.
Donghae pulled away and panted to catch his breath.
Kyuhyun said, "Wow..."
They were both now in Kyuhyun's room and they were on his bed. Donghae started stripping off both of their clothes. He sucked on Kyuhyun's neck and the yougner boy moaned. Donghae admired Kyuhyun's strong vocals and he whispered, "More..."
He went further down to suck on Kyuhyun's nipple and he licked it in strong cirlces. Kyuhyun moaned in hasty breaths and pants that could be heard from next door.
Donghae finished with that and he suddenly stuck his member inside the boy below. Kyuhyun winced and moaned out of abrupt pain.
Donghae whispered, "Sorry."
Kyuhyun objected, "Don't be, keep going, Hae."
Donghae kept going and he thrusted himself pretty hard. Kyuhyun brought Donghae's body closer to his and their moist bodies rubbed in the process. They both panted and groaned and moaned offbeat but it was still a great rhythm that they were at.
Donghae felt himself coming close to his climax and Kyuhyun had already spilled himself on Donghae stomach. Donghae felt Kyuhyun's body shutter in the process and Donghae moaned louder as he felt that. He soon spilled his seed inside Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun moaned.
Donghae fell beside Kyuhyun and the younger boy slowly let himself sleep.
(When Kyuhyun was 20 and Donghae was 22.)
Donghae and Kyuhyun were somehow closer, but they never mentioned what happened that day. In fact, they never even went out together or neither would be seen in the kitchen late at night.
Then Donghae found him. Donghae asked, "What am I...supposed to tell Kyuhyun?"
His father shook his head and said, "Are you sure he's the one. If you're mistaking, then the spell won't be broken."
Donghae pointed out, "Your passed heart told Kyuhyun that."
"Welll, it should work this time."
Donghae asked, "How?"
"Eunhyuk is starting to have feelings for you. But if he gives you up, the spell will be done."
Donghae nodded.
(A few months [maybe a year].)
Kyuhyun unexpectedly moved out the day Donghae went out to see his dad.
Kyuhyun grimaced when his mother told him the whole story of their past. He asked, "But...is that why...everyone in our family died?"
His mother, who was talking to him on the phone, said, "Yes, Kyuhyun. If Eunhyuk won't accept Donghae then you'll have him and it'll all end."
Kyuhyun said, "Umma, I'm in America. You said the deadline is this week. How am I going to leave to Seoul, find Donghae, and all that."
"Oh," his mother challenged, "Are you saying you can't do it?"
"Well, I never sa-"
"Is this too hard for you? Are you not going to suceed this time? I think I should tell your grandfather-"
"No! Fine, I'll be in Seoul some time soon." Once Kyuhyun hung up he suddenly thought, 'Holy crap, I don't even know where he lives.'
(4 days later)
Kyuhyun asked again, "What?"
Yesung and Kyuhyun were at a cafe in Seoul.
Yesung answered, "He...he's getting married to Eunhyuk. Ever since you left he's been... not himself. He started to act different."
Kyuhyun asked, "But...why is he marrying him? Why is Eunhyuk marrying Donghae? My Donghae!"
Yesung smirked, "I knew you liked him."
"Huh," Kyuhyun turned confused. "But, how?"
Yesung said, "I knew you loved Daesook. And...after Donghae came to Seoul, and he had his heart replaced by Daesook, I wanted to know how much you really wanted Daesook's heart. Plus, Eunhyuk saw something about Daesook in Donghae."
Kyuhyun stood up, "Where is he?"
Yesung admitted, "I don't know."
Kyuhyun promised, "If I don't find him, and confess to him, I'll kill myself." Kyuhyun walked away.
(The next day.)
Donghae asked, "W-what?"
Sungmin said, "Kyuhyun came back for you. Are you going to say no to him?"
Donghae teared up, "He left without even telling me, Sungmin. That means something. It means he doesn't love me the same way. Face it, Sungmin, it'll never happen between us. Plus, I'm getting married tomorrow. What am I gonna tell Eunhyuk?"
Sungmin stated, "Especially since you don't even love Eunhyuk. What are you to tell him? I don't know. What will you tell Kyuhyun? I don't know that either."
(The next day.)
Kyuhyun knew time was running out, he knew he was supposed to succeed, but he couldn't. Not while seeing his best friend win the love of his life all over again.
"Lee Eunhyuk, do you take Donghae to be your husband."
Eunhyuk, unsure if he really wanted to take something that belonged to Kyuhyun away, hesitated. But he answered, "I do."
Kyuhyun thought, 'I...can't take it much longer.'
Kyuhyun instantly got up to leave, Yesung, Ryeowook, and Sungmin's eyes widened. Sungmin whispered in a plead, "Please, Kyu, don't leave again."
Kyuhyun whispered, "He has him." Kyuhyun walked towards the door.
Donghae who saw someone leaving from the corner of his eye, gasped inside. He didn't know Kyuhyun had showed up. He begged inside, 'Kyuhyun, don't leave me again. I may have left you once, but I'm here. Please, come back.'
"Lee Donghae, do you take this man to be your husband?"
Donghae took a big gulp. He looked into Eunhyuk's eyes and saw solemn-ness, yet the least bit of attraction. He looked at Sungmin, who loved Kyuhyun ever since he met him, and Sungmin gave him the, "Please stop" look.
"Lee Donghae, do you?"
"Donghae..." Eunhyuk whispered.
Donghae's heart started to ahce and he suddenly groaned. He put his hand to his heart and fell.
Eunhyuk caught him and the people started gasping and calling the ambulance. Eunhyuk whispered, "Donghae... Donghae..."
Donghae whispered, "Kyuhyun..."
Eunhyuk felt his heart break. But he thought, 'This is how it should be. This is how it should've been.'
(The next day.)
Donghae woke up in a hospital bed and he saw Sungmin next to him. He quickly stood up and asked, "W-...what happened?"
Sungmin, who's eyes were red, whispered, "You...you had a heart atack. Then, Kyuhyun...he found out... then he... he gave you his heart." Sungmin's tears started to flow off his face.
Donghae held his heart and he asked, "But...why?"
Sungmin said, "Because he...loves you, Donghae. He always had."
Donghae covered his face and started crying.
But he then heard Kyuhyun's voice, 'You shouldn't be sad, you should be happy. You get to live your life, Donghae. You can get married, have kids, and make sure they break the spell. Donghae, I'd do anything for you, even give you my heart. I... I love you forever. Accept my heart.'
-Fin.
Year 1800, Ancient Korea
(When Kyuhyun was 19 and Donghae was 21.)
Kyuhyun let the male on top insert his hard member inside of him, he moaned in pain yet unbeatable pleasure. "H-hae...keep going...!"
Donghae went deeper inside the boy and moaned lightly at how good and real this felt. He wrapped his hand on the younger's member and jerked him off.
Kyuhyun's moans were loud, but he was sure no one would hear them. Donghae said to keep moaning and Kyuhyun obeyed.
Donghae admitted he didn't like the boy at first, but feelings do change.
(When Kyuhyun was 17 and Donghae was 19.)
Donghae was merely a peasant, but a very good looking one. He had so many girls that wanted him, but he wasn't interested in either of them.
Kyuhyun was a prince and his grandfather and step-father had sent hundreds of beautiful women to him. But none he ever wanted.
Kyuhyun knew his grandfather was getting old but he really didn't know why each woman was...unappealing to him.
Donghae loved his family very much, but that wasn't enough. He had lived in a far place from the village, deep in the woods. He always wore black and he would cut off his sleeves [as we now call them undershirts] and he'd informally cut his pants [what we call shorts]. Girls mainly liked him for his wild side, every other man in the village was so..."blunt", they had said. He probably seemed rough when making tools to trade and sell, but really deep down...he was extremely lonely.
Kyuhyun hated being in the palace. But this time, he had wished he'd never went out. But, he was glad he did, only because he had met Donghae in the woods.
(When Kyuhyun was 18 and Donghae was 20.)
For a full year, after they met, they have grown so fond of each other. Also, they had begun in a relationship unknown to anyone. Donghae was always happy when he was with Kyuhyun, he felt less lonely. Kyuhyun was also happy, and he felt more free.
But it didn't last long, unfortunately.
(When Kyuhyun was 21 and Donghae was 23.)
The guard held the rope tighter on Kyuhyun's neck.
His step father asked, "I will ask you one more time, are you seeing someone."
Kyuhyun growled, "No!"
His grandfather solemnly held his hand and the guards through down a body but the body autimatically got up.
Kyuhyun thought, 'Donghae...'
Donghae thought, 'Kyuhyun...'
Kyuhyun's step father asked, "Are you or are you not seeing this man, as in an intimate relationship?"
Kyuhyun confirmed, "Yes. I love him."
Kyuhyun's step father was about to slap Kyuhyun but his grandfather softly objected, "No." He made a gesture that meant, "Take the boy away".
The guards roughly pulled Donghae away and Kyuhyun's heart beat faster.
His grandfather sadly said, "You...have failed me, my grandson."
He wanted Kyuhyun dismissed and the step father demanded, "Put him in the cell! That's where all the homos belong." He walked away in fury, leaving a pissed off Kyuhyun.
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Kyuhyun was in the cell for about 5 days, until his older step brother came back to the palace. Kyuhyun never wanted the crown, Hyukjae [also known as Eunhyuk] wanted it. But, Eunhyuk was a modest boy. Since Kyuhyun was blood related to his grandfather, he was assigned to take the throne.
Eunhyuk had demanded the guards to let Kyuhyun out of his cell and into his room so he can meet him properly, not in some garbage box.
After Kyuhyun was cleaned and sitting in the living room across from his step brother he asked, "Why?"
Eunhyuk smiled, "Because, we're brothers. I don't care who you fall for, even if it was a dog I would still love you. Got that, Kyu?"
Kyuhyun didn't nod, he didn't even look at him either when he asked, "Where is Donghae...?"
Eunhyuk solemnly looked down and said, "Step father killed him, Kyu. That's why... I killed step father. You guys are the reason why I'm here. Also, because of the throne."
Kyuhyun felt tears form in his eyes, "I don't care who grandfather decides to give it to. I have nothing else to lose."
"Kyuhyun."
Kyuhyun looked up to see his grandfather walking towards a chair near Eunhyuk.
His grandfather said, "Hyukjae, please dismiss yourself. I must speak privately with my grandson."
Eunhyuk bowed politely and left the room, slowly closing the doors for privacy.
"Now," Kyuhyun's grandfather's voice was obviously making him feel old, "Kyuhyun, I didn't know he would kill him. But, let me tell you how I know...that his heart is still alive somewhere."
Kyuhyun asked, "Wh-were?"
His grandfather sighed, "Did you know that...our family was cursed towards the ones we truly love?" Kyuhyun shook his head. "I loved your grandmother, she had died. Your father, he died because your mother loved him too much. Your step father loved your mother a lot and she died. Eunhyuk loved his died so much he ended up killing him because he killed...the one you truly love.""
Kyuhyun asked, "How come no one told me?"
"We hoped you would never find love. And...Donghae's heart...is in someone else's body. There is only one question you must again. I shall ask you because...it has to be your choice. Do you want the throne?"
Kyuhyun bitterly asked, "Does it really make a difference?"
"It does. The girl that you or Eunhyuk will marry...has Donghae's heart. If you say yes, you two will be married and her heart will be attracted to you. But, if you say no to this and don't marry her...the curse will be broken."
Kyuhyun's heart trembled and he said, "You know I loved him. Why should I let his heart be given to Eunhyuk?"
"Because the heart will die too, Kyuhyun. She will never truly love Eunhyuk, and since he isn't blood related to our curse, neither will die."
Kyuhyun took awhile to answer, "...No. Let Eunhyuk have the throne."
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(The year 2010, Kyuhyun is 16.)
Kyuhyun lived in a dorm with Sungmin Ryeowook, Yesung, Eunhyuk, and Daesook [Yesung's step sister and Eunhyuk's girlfriend]. Kyuhyun had been somewhat attracted to Daesook, and Daesook the same, but she felt...that she was destined to be with Eunhyuk.
It wasn't until later that Kyuhyun loved her so much that she ended up getting in a car crash. He knew it was his fault because all his life the ones he loved had died, which was why he promised he would never fall in love again.
Until the new dorm mate came along 2 years later.
(When Kyuhyun was 17 and Donghae was 19.)
Yesung smiled, "Everyone, this is an old friend of mine, Lee Donghae."
Once Kyuhyun laid eyes on him he could have sowrn it was that same "Daesook" attraction he had felt for her.
Days had went by and everyone noticed that Donghae and Kyuhyun had felt very...strange when they were near. And Eunhyuk felt like he was seeing another Daesook in the dorms.
When Donghae and Kyuhyun went out for some things to shop for, Donghae and Kyuhyun reached for the same book and Donghae blushed.
"Sorry." He took the book out and handed it to Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun froze for a milisecond but then shook his head. He handed it to Donghae and admitted, "I already read it. Here."
Donghae smiled and asked, "Really? Thanks. Was it any good?"
Kyuhyun teasingly said, "I'm not revealing anything."
Donghae pouted and said, "Fine then."
After they were done Donghae gasped, "Oops! I think I forgot something, Kyuhyun. Can you wait for me in the car?"
Kyuhyun obeyed and he was now sitting in the car for...5 minutes.
'Daesook would often forget things at the store and would ask us to stay in the car. And she would take 6 minutes max.' Kyuhyun thought.
Kyuhyun counted a few more seconds and saw Donghae slip inside the car. Kyuhyun thought, '6 minutes.'
Kyuhyun asked, "What'd you forget?"
Donghae blushed as he pulled out a box of cereal called "Fruity Pebbles". "I'm in love with this cereal, but I haven't had it in awhile and I was meaning to get it."
Kyuhyun thought, 'Daesook loved that cereal. Omo, he even...sounds like her.'
Donghae and Kyuhyun were silent as they drove back to the dorms. Donghae turned the car off and noticed Kyuhyun wasn't even moving. He asked, "Is there something wrong?"
Kyuhyun got out of his daze and shook his head. He got out, took some bags out of the car and headed inside the dorms, with Donghae following him.
While Kyuhyun was sleeping he awoke because he kept thinking about how similar Donghae was to Daesook. He got out of his bed and he headed for the kitchen. He should have expected this, but he didn't. Donghae was sitting on the table with a glass of water in his hands.
Kyuhyun thought, 'Daesook would often have nightmares and stay in the kitchen while drinking a glass of water.'
Kyuhyun went into the kitchen and took out a soda. He sat across from Donghae and asked, "Nightmares?"
Donghae asked, "How'd you know?"
Kyuhyun shook his head and took a gulp of his drink. He asked, "Can I...tell you something?"
Donghae nodded.
Kyuhyun muttered, "It has to be between us, though. Okay?"
"Okay."
Kyuhyun confessed, "Before you came to live with us, Yesung had a step sister named Daesook. For some reason, I really liked her, a lot. But her and Eunhyuk were together. I've always had this feeling if I loved someone too much, they'd die. It has happened over the years. So...I ended up falling for her so much, and...she died from a car crash."
Donghae asked, "Did she...ever know?"
Kyuhyun shook his head. "We barely knew each other, well she barely knew me. I knew everything about her. She...liked the same books I liked. She would often forget things at the store, ask us to wait in the car, and take 6 minutes to be done. She liked that Fruity Pebbles cereal a lot. She had a thing for having a naturally cute voice and blushing. And...she would often wake up from a nightmare and drink a glass of water to calm down."
Donghae looked down and said, "When did she die?"
Kyuhyun said, "March 14, 2009. Eunhyuk was taking her somewhere and it happened."
Donghae quietly said, "When I came here, I ended up getting a heart attack on March 14, 2009. I was in a coma for a few months. When I woke up, Yesung was by my side and he told me they had to replace my heart. When I came here, and I saw a picture of 'Daesook' in Eunhyuk's room, I asked him who she was and he said just someone.
"But, later on I wanted to know who's heart I had. And...it turned out to be Daesook's heart."
Kyuhyun's heart started to beat faster and harder. He asked, "Really?"
Donghae nodded.
(When Kyuhyun was 19 and Donghae was 21.)
They had tried their best to not be so awkward from time to time. Yesung couldn't take it anymore and he said, "Let's go out."
When Yesung ever says "out" it's usually really rare. But, he said it and everyone obeyed.
Donghae admitted he didn't really drink at all and Eunhyuk and Kyuhyun thought, 'Daesook never really drank either.'
Donghae felt a litte...left out since Sungmin and Eunhyuk were doing a dance battle and Yesung and Ryeowook were...somewhere[?] else.
He sat next to Kyuhyun and asked, "What are you drinking?"
Kyuhyun shrugged, "I don't even know, it just tastes good."
Donghae laughed and got the same thing. He admitted, "Wow, it really does taste good."
They drank a few more and the next thing they knew they were kissing as if they were together.
Donghae pulled away and panted to catch his breath.
Kyuhyun said, "Wow..."
They were both now in Kyuhyun's room and they were on his bed. Donghae started stripping off both of their clothes. He sucked on Kyuhyun's neck and the yougner boy moaned. Donghae admired Kyuhyun's strong vocals and he whispered, "More..."
He went further down to suck on Kyuhyun's nipple and he licked it in strong cirlces. Kyuhyun moaned in hasty breaths and pants that could be heard from next door.
Donghae finished with that and he suddenly stuck his member inside the boy below. Kyuhyun winced and moaned out of abrupt pain.
Donghae whispered, "Sorry."
Kyuhyun objected, "Don't be, keep going, Hae."
Donghae kept going and he thrusted himself pretty hard. Kyuhyun brought Donghae's body closer to his and their moist bodies rubbed in the process. They both panted and groaned and moaned offbeat but it was still a great rhythm that they were at.
Donghae felt himself coming close to his climax and Kyuhyun had already spilled himself on Donghae stomach. Donghae felt Kyuhyun's body shutter in the process and Donghae moaned louder as he felt that. He soon spilled his seed inside Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun moaned.
Donghae fell beside Kyuhyun and the younger boy slowly let himself sleep.
(When Kyuhyun was 20 and Donghae was 22.)
Donghae and Kyuhyun were somehow closer, but they never mentioned what happened that day. In fact, they never even went out together or neither would be seen in the kitchen late at night.
Then Donghae found him. Donghae asked, "What am I...supposed to tell Kyuhyun?"
His father shook his head and said, "Are you sure he's the one. If you're mistaking, then the spell won't be broken."
Donghae pointed out, "Your passed heart told Kyuhyun that."
"Welll, it should work this time."
Donghae asked, "How?"
"Eunhyuk is starting to have feelings for you. But if he gives you up, the spell will be done."
Donghae nodded.
(A few months [maybe a year].)
Kyuhyun unexpectedly moved out the day Donghae went out to see his dad.
Kyuhyun grimaced when his mother told him the whole story of their past. He asked, "But...is that why...everyone in our family died?"
His mother, who was talking to him on the phone, said, "Yes, Kyuhyun. If Eunhyuk won't accept Donghae then you'll have him and it'll all end."
Kyuhyun said, "Umma, I'm in America. You said the deadline is this week. How am I going to leave to Seoul, find Donghae, and all that."
"Oh," his mother challenged, "Are you saying you can't do it?"
"Well, I never sa-"
"Is this too hard for you? Are you not going to suceed this time? I think I should tell your grandfather-"
"No! Fine, I'll be in Seoul some time soon." Once Kyuhyun hung up he suddenly thought, 'Holy crap, I don't even know where he lives.'
(4 days later)
Kyuhyun asked again, "What?"
Yesung and Kyuhyun were at a cafe in Seoul.
Yesung answered, "He...he's getting married to Eunhyuk. Ever since you left he's been... not himself. He started to act different."
Kyuhyun asked, "But...why is he marrying him? Why is Eunhyuk marrying Donghae? My Donghae!"
Yesung smirked, "I knew you liked him."
"Huh," Kyuhyun turned confused. "But, how?"
Yesung said, "I knew you loved Daesook. And...after Donghae came to Seoul, and he had his heart replaced by Daesook, I wanted to know how much you really wanted Daesook's heart. Plus, Eunhyuk saw something about Daesook in Donghae."
Kyuhyun stood up, "Where is he?"
Yesung admitted, "I don't know."
Kyuhyun promised, "If I don't find him, and confess to him, I'll kill myself." Kyuhyun walked away.
(The next day.)
Donghae asked, "W-what?"
Sungmin said, "Kyuhyun came back for you. Are you going to say no to him?"
Donghae teared up, "He left without even telling me, Sungmin. That means something. It means he doesn't love me the same way. Face it, Sungmin, it'll never happen between us. Plus, I'm getting married tomorrow. What am I gonna tell Eunhyuk?"
Sungmin stated, "Especially since you don't even love Eunhyuk. What are you to tell him? I don't know. What will you tell Kyuhyun? I don't know that either."
(The next day.)
Kyuhyun knew time was running out, he knew he was supposed to succeed, but he couldn't. Not while seeing his best friend win the love of his life all over again.
"Lee Eunhyuk, do you take Donghae to be your husband."
Eunhyuk, unsure if he really wanted to take something that belonged to Kyuhyun away, hesitated. But he answered, "I do."
Kyuhyun thought, 'I...can't take it much longer.'
Kyuhyun instantly got up to leave, Yesung, Ryeowook, and Sungmin's eyes widened. Sungmin whispered in a plead, "Please, Kyu, don't leave again."
Kyuhyun whispered, "He has him." Kyuhyun walked towards the door.
Donghae who saw someone leaving from the corner of his eye, gasped inside. He didn't know Kyuhyun had showed up. He begged inside, 'Kyuhyun, don't leave me again. I may have left you once, but I'm here. Please, come back.'
"Lee Donghae, do you take this man to be your husband?"
Donghae took a big gulp. He looked into Eunhyuk's eyes and saw solemn-ness, yet the least bit of attraction. He looked at Sungmin, who loved Kyuhyun ever since he met him, and Sungmin gave him the, "Please stop" look.
"Lee Donghae, do you?"
"Donghae..." Eunhyuk whispered.
Donghae's heart started to ahce and he suddenly groaned. He put his hand to his heart and fell.
Eunhyuk caught him and the people started gasping and calling the ambulance. Eunhyuk whispered, "Donghae... Donghae..."
Donghae whispered, "Kyuhyun..."
Eunhyuk felt his heart break. But he thought, 'This is how it should be. This is how it should've been.'
(The next day.)
Donghae woke up in a hospital bed and he saw Sungmin next to him. He quickly stood up and asked, "W-...what happened?"
Sungmin, who's eyes were red, whispered, "You...you had a heart atack. Then, Kyuhyun...he found out... then he... he gave you his heart." Sungmin's tears started to flow off his face.
Donghae held his heart and he asked, "But...why?"
Sungmin said, "Because he...loves you, Donghae. He always had."
Donghae covered his face and started crying.
But he then heard Kyuhyun's voice, 'You shouldn't be sad, you should be happy. You get to live your life, Donghae. You can get married, have kids, and make sure they break the spell. Donghae, I'd do anything for you, even give you my heart. I... I love you forever. Accept my heart.'
-Fin.
If Dongho Were A Girl (Soohyun/Dongho.Drabble)
Pairing: one-sided!Soohyun/Dongho. Rating: PG. Genre: Angst, Crush(a small interest) Summary: Dongho writes in his journal of what he would do if he were a girl. Warning: This is more like a drabble, so it's very abrupt.
Dongho looks at the clock, which it says 2AM. He turns his small lamp on and pulls his journal out from his pillow case. Writing the date, time, and his name first, he begins a new entry.
"If I Were a Girl"
The titles before were, "What I Love About Soohyun", "If I Married a Girl", "If Kevin Was a Girl", "If I Quit U-Kiss", and others. Tonight he wanted to try another something that would never come true.
I'd do my hair for 10 minutes instead of 5 hours.
I'd wear kinky clothes to see what it was like.
I'd complain to my daddy constantly.
I'd flirt with all the guys openly.
I'd tell Soohyun how much I loved him, how long I've loved him, and how hard it is for me to hold it in.
I'd try to lift weights.
I'd be IU's bestest friend.
I'd compliment Soohyun's body.
I'd eat all the chocolate I could get and cry about being fat.
I'd marry Soohyun, and have his babies.
Sadly, Dongho ran out of ideas. He said quietly, "But I'm not a girl. So I can never be with Soohyun." A tear fell from his face and he put his book away, turn the lights off, and cried himself to sleep.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
If You Still Loved Me (girlxgirl.oneshot)
Title: If You Still Loved Me. Pair: [Fictionals] Beats/Renee, minors. Rate: R. Genre: Romance, Angst. Summary: Beatrice, known as Beats, and Renee broke up because Renee felt that it wasn't working. Beats is more than upset, she is depressed. (A short story about love, heart break, forbidden love, and Beats' 15 year struggle.)
Warnings: cursing, mentions of sex, girlxgirl love, minor!boyxboy love
A/N: Based on true events, and the characters in the story are real people
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Beats and Renee were silent, dead silent. You couldn't even hear their breath. Renee finally spoke, "I-... I'm sorry, Beatri-"
"No." Beats took a step back, bumping into the door knob. She unthinkingly opened the door, walked out quickly, not hearing Renee call her back. She went down the stairs, trying to avoid tripping or something, but she was kind of hoping so she could die. She made it too the door, but hesitated after opening it. She was waiting.
Stop me, if You still loved me you'd stop me right now
No sound, Beats left, slamming the door, tears streaming down her caked make up face.
Maybe it was the dark make up, maybe it was my boyish clothes
No, Renee wore boyish clothes also, but no make up. She had short hair, and so did Beats. Beats and Renee were sort of the same height, Renee being taller, but Beats was the male in the relationship.
Maybe I was too controlling? Maybe she didn't like that I was guy-like?
Beats wasn't sure anymore, she just knew she was in love with Renee, hoping it would fade.
Beats woke up sick from crying all night, and her parents heard but they didn't know why. In the morning Beats went to school, hating the fact that she'd have to tell her friends the bad news.
"Guys," she started, "Renee broke up with me." Beats gulped down hard, today she was wearing liquid-proof make up, but she still didn't want to cry.
All of her friends gasped, Renee was her very first everything, and it made everyone happy. A friend put their hand on Beats shoulder, and Beats couldn't hold it in anymore. She sobbed, tears falling like rain, and the popular group and people that disliked her went to her side to see what was wrong. But Beats covered her face and walked away from all of them.
It's unbearable, they all care, but You don't. If You still loved me You would have called me today
Going home after school was a numb feeling Beats never felt, and she usually felt and remembered how she got home in the first place. Being home alone, both her parents at work, made her feel like the emptiness in her heart; meaningless things were there except love. She went to the computer, even if she had homework. She went on her email to see tons of messages about the scene she made, also on MySpace, FaceBook, Gaia, thank god not on LiveJournal or Quizilla.
Listening to hardcore screamo metal and all, she went to sleep. Dreaming so helplessly of Renee. Just thinking about Renee made her cry so hard she could die, which is what she wanted so badly. She woke up, it was 3 AM, she looked at her phone.
Crap, all these missed calls, emails, texts, and none are from You. If You still loved me you'd at least check that I didn't commit suicide
Crying already, she forced her eyes closed, hoping she'd dream of killing herself hundreds of times until she had the guts to actually do it.
Another day at school, painful yet numb as usual. Until girls she used to like and even guys came to talk to her whenever she was alone.
A punk, but popular for her looks and singing voice, girl came up to her. Punk-Girl was friendly to everyone, and no one hated her, everyone loved her, even Beats had a crush on her. Punk-Girl smiled, "Hey."
"I know you're only talking to me for the first time because of what happened."
Punk-Girl looked hurt and guilty, but the smile was still plastered onto her face. "Listen, Beatrice, I heard someone broke up with you."
"I loved her."
"Her?"
"Go ahead and tell someone, I don't care anymore."
Punk-Girl was silent, for a long second. She leaned forward, "What was she like?"
"You might as well ask me to pull a hammer and hit myself in the head." However, Beats did tell her, "She was smart, she's the reason why I wanted to be smart. She was boyish, the first time I saw her I thought she was a boy, but I still didn't care. For 3 years I loved her, and 1 year in those 3 she broke up with me." Beats looked down, she wasn't even bothering putting on make up anymore. "I still love her."
Punk-Girl had tears in her eyes, she wiped a tear, sniffed, but still held a smile. "You're strong, don't do anything rash, Beatrice. You seem nice. There are plenty of-"
Beats stood up, "Don't say that." Beats walked away from Punk-Girl while she was still talking, she was the very first to do that.
If You still loved me, you'd wonder if I still liked Punk-Girl
Days went by, and a guy she used to like more than anyone else other than Renee went up to her, "Beats, stop doing this!"
"Doing what? What am I doing?"
"You're depressed! Who cares if someone dumped you."
Beats stood, "Shut up. I loved her with all my heart for 3 years, no one can ever change that."
He seemed shocked, "You're a dyke?"
"No. I liked you, didn't I?"
"Oh." He was silent for a moment, obviously bothered, not completely disturbed, by the sudden confession of the orientation. He tried to be perky again, "Listen, Beats, seriously, it's hard seeing you like this. I think she would-"
"If She still loved me She would have taken the time to speak to me ever since we broke up."
He was defeated, they both knew it.
Later on, a girl, in which her nickname was Simple, that Beats still kind of liked finally took the courage in talking to the stubborn, walking zombie. "Hey."
Beats was surprised, and not surprised. "Hm."
Simple never started their conversation first, not even if they were partnered in temporary. Simple sat next to Beats, it was study hall. "Listen, I feel really ba-"
"I have 2 ideas of what you're about to say. 1) You feel bad I was broken up with, or 2) You're guilty that you never spoke to me."
Simple was silent. "Both. But I really am sorry."
Beats wanted to smile, but she couldn't. "I'm sorry too. I'm sorry that I like you. Do you know what I used to wonder? You're beautiful, you have a pretty smile, chocolate brown eyes, skinny, breasts, and you're not popular. I think that's why I liked you more than anyone other than Renee and Joshua."
Simple was silent, bothered but trying to be polite. She stood up and left, and Beats felt happy for a moment.
If You still loved me you would ask how I was doing, I wonder how you're doing
After school Beats went on the computer, slept, got up to go to school.
She did that for 5 years. In her senior year of high school she lost her virginity with some manwhore. After it was over he huffed, "You can't tell anybody we did this."
Beats just blinked got dressed, and left. She was at a party that some girl from the popular girl invited her to.
And then she saw her.
Renee
Beats saw Simple, sitting at a table, cup of water in her hand. She seemed miserable. Through the years her friends started abandoning her because her breasts got bigger, like Beats'. And guys started making rumors of fucking her, therefore, she is a rumored slut. However, Beats knew she wasn't.
Beats went to the table and sat down, "Why are you sitting here?"
Simple looked up, a little surprised and scared. Beats still had a crush on Simple, and Simple knew and was still bothered. But she was glad one person in the school didn't hate her. "If you didn't read the weekly gossipers, I'm a whore."
Beats grimaced, "No, you're not. The girls here are haters, the guys are pigs."
Simple responded, "Not to be mean, but I know you're only talking to me because you like me."
"At least I don't think you're a whore. Can you dance?" Beats' mind was still on Renee, but she still wanted Simple to dance with her.
Simple shrugged, "Yeah, but it'll cause my rep of being a slut to go higher."
"You dancing with me won't make you a whore, but it'll give people some horny minds because everyone here besides us is drunk." Beats stood up.
Simple, knowing Beats can move on the floor, nervously muttered, "Compared to you, I suck at dancing."
"I'll make you look good, and again, everyone is drunk."
Simple smiled, "Kay."
Beats and Simple went to the floor with bumping music that you can have sex to played. Beats and Simple were at first dancing, giving each other space between them. Then the floor got more crowded, and Beats skillfully brought Simple's body closer to her own body. Renee left Beats head, and Simple's hot body was on her mind and her body. Simple was stiff from their sudden contact at first, but the music brought her senses down and her body alive.
People were staring, mostly guys. They seemed so horny by how well and long they stared. Suddenly, Beats smashed their lips together, hand on the back on Simple's head. Simple pulled away, covering her lips. But then she removed her hand and kissed Beats. The two made out on the dance floor, and when Beats pulled away, Renee was staring straight at them.
If You still loved me you would leave right now
But Renee walked up to Beats, "Beatrice? Is that you?"
Beats looked at Simple, Simple asked, "Who's this?"
"I'm Renee, Beats and I were..."
"We were nothing." Beats pulled Simple away, feeling the pit of her stomach burning.
Simple asked as they were outside, "What's wrong? Was that-... Was that her?"
Beats turned to Simple, her face close, her voice in a low whisper, "I don't want to talk about her." Beats connected their lips. Her hands gripped Simple's waist, and she pushed her up against the house.
Simple moaned, a little in a whine. But she pulled away, "No, I can't do this. You still love her."
"Simple, but-"
Simple pushed Beats' chest, "You like me, but you love her."
Beats shook her head, eyes clenched, "Stop. Marissa, please stop this." Beats used Simple's real name, meaning she was serious.
Simple shook her head, "It hurts doesn't it? If you were over her, you'd be able to stand it."
Beats opened her eyes, but turned to walk away.
If You still loved me, you would stop me right now
But Renee didn't come, and Beats kept walking on her way home. At school the next day, Beats avoided Simple, and everyone else that remembered or thought they saw she and Simple kiss. Beats dreamt of Renee, still in middle school, and they were saying their feelings. Only to be interrupted by the break up. Flashbacks of Beats old crushes trying to break her ice came to mind, and Simple's words came in, only to make Beats scream in frustration to wake.
For 3 years in her college, she's had sex with at least 1 man and 2 different girls. And still, the only person she loved was Renee, sometimes she wanted to moan her name while having sex with someone else. Beats moved away from LA, all the way to Tokyo, where she met some really sexy model named Haiku, nicknamed Jet.
In bed, Beats noted, she was as fast as a jet. Jet and Beats had a relationship for about 1 month, but after Jet found out Beats was in love with another woman, she thought it'd be best for her to leave.
Straight after, Beats being almost 21 years old, she moved to Seoul where she met some 25 year old dancer and they hit it off in an instant. His stage name was Mouse, he was childish, cute, and definitely Beats' ideal type in men. Beats ended up being pregnant within 2 weeks in their relationship. She hid it at first, afraid, but he found out eventually. He told her it was okay, that he wanted a baby in the first place to prove to his older dance mates that he could get a woman.
That broke Beats' heart. Mouse was a good, cool kid. The both of them were childish, now they had to take care of a baby. One day, after a few months, they fought because Beats brought up the subject of him loving his dance mate. He said he was straight, but his eyes, filled with tears, told a different story. Beats left his place, going to one of his dance mate's place. His stage name was Rough, because he was big and had a nice body.
Once she came in, she asked, "Do you love him?"
He froze, "Wh-what?"
"Do you love him?"
"Beats-"
"Tell me, Ronnie, please."
Rough was looking down when he confessed, "I love him with all my heart."
Tears fell from Beats eyes, but she smiled in happiness. "Then I suggest you two should be together. I lost the one I loved, and I want you two to be together while you two still love each other. I just realized today that you really can't move on or live without that person." Beats left, went back to Mouse's place, packed her things, and left. All that while he was knocked out on the couch.
She took the next few planes all the way to LA, which was a drag, considering that she was pregnant. She went to her younger cousin's house, but they consider themselves sisters. Her sister was shocked to see her sister pregnant.
When she asked, Beats answered, "I'm 8 months pregnant. I left my boyfriend, he loved someone else and that someone loved him also. I want them to be together."
Her sister smiled, she knew Beats was depressed all her life because a girl dumped her. "I hope you find that person, also."
"Thanks."
After about 7 years later, Beats was about 28. And her baby boy was turning 7. His name was Jaehyun Simple Cortez, Mouse's real name and Rough's real name together, with Marissa's nickname, and Beats' last name. Jaehyun was a very childish kid, just like his mother and father. He looked like a perfect mixture, but he had an accent every time he spoke Korean, Spanish, and English. It was cute, and lots of little girls loved him, but he seemed uninterested.
One time, Beats asked her son, "Jae, do you like girls?"
Jaehyun seemed confused, "Yes, I'm supposed to, that's what Zach said when I said Greg was cute."
Greg reminded Beats of Renee, too much, but she responded, "You like Greg, don't you?"
Jaehyun smiled, "We kissed before."
"You did? When?"
Jaehyun was turning red, "Well, it was at school, under the play structure. Remember we got in a fight? Then you and his daddy had to talk to my teacher after school? We decided to make up, and I asked how do you make up. And he said his parents make up by kissing. Then we did. Is that bad?"
Beats smiled, "No, of course that isn't bad. Y'know, your father likes guys."
"Did he like you?"
"I don't know, but his boyfriend was pretty cute."
"Do you like daddy?"
"Yes."
"Do you like girls?"
"Yes."
"That's weird."
Beats chuckled, "Okay, let's eat dinner."
After a few months, Beats was called to Jaehyun's school, she guessed he was in another fight. There were two more mothers in the teacher's class, and she stopped as she saw the mothers.
Renee, and Simple.
If You still loved me, you would be shocked to see me
And Renee was. "Beatrice?"
"Beats?" Simple hugged her, "How are you?"
When she pulled away, Beats noticed Renee with a shocked expression. But Beats answered, "Old."
Simple chuckled, not remembering Renee was Beats true love. The parents sat down. And the teacher began.
"Ms. Cortez, your son Jae and Mrs. Alvorado's son Greg have made a very inappropriate talk in class. And Mrs. Hanson's son Zach was also part of it."
Beats asked, in her somewhat manly voice, "What happened?"
"Jae said it was all right for he and Greg to make up. And they kissed in front of the class, Zach ran away, eyes covered with his hands. Even when I tried to stop them, Greg and Jae told Zach it was okay for them to kiss, guys can like guys. Zach then turned to another boy named Eli and kissed him. I didn't mind the kissing if it were between the opposite sex, but with the same-"
Beats chuckled, no matter how hard she tried to hold it in. Simple did also, and Renee laughed too.
"What is so funny?"
"Mrs. Jack, let me tell you, I told my son it was okay. And, I have kissed these two women before. And Jaehyun's father is gay. So, if you're homophobic, just suspend him from your class or something. I don't give a damn, kissing is unacceptable, but expelling them for talking about guys liking guys is pathetic." Beats stood. "It was nice chuckling at your ignorant rant, I'll be on my way to take my child to Chuck E. Cheese, he deserves it."
Simple stood, holding Beats hand, making electric shocks run through her mind. Renee stood also, and the two followed Beats walk out of the class leaving a stunned teacher.
Beats scoffed, "Bitch. She's lucky I didn't slap her or something."
Simple gushed, "I can't believe you said that, it was amazing. I mean, you were so respectful in school to teachers, but this is hilarious."
"And you're breasts just keep getting bigger."
"I wouldn't talk, yours aren't any smaller."
"Touche, but I can hide it."
Renee coughed, "Beatrice?"
Simple said, "I'll see ya later, Beats, and bye, Mrs. Alvorado." Simple walked away.
Beats heart thumped loudly, even Renee could hear it. Beats asked, "Yeah?"
"Is Jaehyun really your son?"
"Yeah, why is that so hard to believe?"
"I thought you couldn't..."
Beats chuckled humorlessly, "I had sex at least 30 times with other people, but I still loved you through these years. And it seems my son likes Greg, your son. Do you love Him?"
"Greg?"
"Your husband."
Renee was silent.
"Yes?"
Silence.
"No?"
"No, I do. Just...not as much as I wished."
Beats sighed, "Why did you dump me, really, Renee?"
Renee shook her head, "I don't know, I thought we'd have to go our separate ways anyways. You loved children and men, you loved other women."
"I also loved Michael Jackson, still do, but I'd choose you over him any day."
Renee, knowing how obsessed Beats was in love with Michael Jackson, gasped "You-you would?"
"Yeah."
"Even if he liked you back?"
"Yep."
"Even if he asked you out?"
"Yes."
"Even if he wanted babies and marriage?"
"Renee, I love no one else more than I love you. For almost 2 decades I loved you."
Renee felt tears swell, but she held it back. "I-..."
"You regret it, I know. But, you don't love me as much as you wish. If you really loved me, you would have stopped me from leaving your house that day, called me the next day, bothered to see me, to leave the party in senior year, all of that. You don't love me, do you?"
"I want to, I'm guilty. I still like you, but-"
"Stop, Renee. It's okay." Beats took a step back, then turned to walk away. When Beats went to the play structure, she saw her child.
She saw Greg's hand on Jaehyun's cheek, Jaehyun and Greg were kissing passionately for little boys.
It made Beats smile.
Greg pulled away. He had blond hair, silver eyes, light skin, and he was taller than Jaehyun. He whispered in a low voice, "I love you, Jaehyun."
Jaehyun smiled, "I love you, Greg. Is this wrong?"
Greg shook his head, "No, my mom said it wasn't."
"So did mine." Jaehyun turned his head, and gasped, "My mom."
Greg pulled away, turned, and took a step back.
But Beats said to Jaehyun as she took steps closer, "It's time to leave."
Jaehyun smiled, "Okay, mom." Jaehyun looked at Greg, longingly. "Bye."
"Later."
Jaehyun walked away. In the car, Jaehyun said, "Mom, I think I'm in love."
"I think you are too."
"Aren't I too young?"
"If you were too young, you're supposed to like girls. And I wouldn't be taking you to Chuck E. Cheese right now."
Jaehyun smiled, "Thanks, mommy. You're the best."
Beats smiled, thinking of Renee's smile back in middle school, it matched Greg's. "Greg is pretty well, Jaehyun, don't you forget your feelings for him."
"I won't ever, mommy, I love him very much."
-Fin.
Warnings: cursing, mentions of sex, girlxgirl love, minor!boyxboy love
A/N: Based on true events, and the characters in the story are real people
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Beats and Renee were silent, dead silent. You couldn't even hear their breath. Renee finally spoke, "I-... I'm sorry, Beatri-"
"No." Beats took a step back, bumping into the door knob. She unthinkingly opened the door, walked out quickly, not hearing Renee call her back. She went down the stairs, trying to avoid tripping or something, but she was kind of hoping so she could die. She made it too the door, but hesitated after opening it. She was waiting.
Stop me, if You still loved me you'd stop me right now
No sound, Beats left, slamming the door, tears streaming down her caked make up face.
Maybe it was the dark make up, maybe it was my boyish clothes
No, Renee wore boyish clothes also, but no make up. She had short hair, and so did Beats. Beats and Renee were sort of the same height, Renee being taller, but Beats was the male in the relationship.
Maybe I was too controlling? Maybe she didn't like that I was guy-like?
Beats wasn't sure anymore, she just knew she was in love with Renee, hoping it would fade.
Beats woke up sick from crying all night, and her parents heard but they didn't know why. In the morning Beats went to school, hating the fact that she'd have to tell her friends the bad news.
"Guys," she started, "Renee broke up with me." Beats gulped down hard, today she was wearing liquid-proof make up, but she still didn't want to cry.
All of her friends gasped, Renee was her very first everything, and it made everyone happy. A friend put their hand on Beats shoulder, and Beats couldn't hold it in anymore. She sobbed, tears falling like rain, and the popular group and people that disliked her went to her side to see what was wrong. But Beats covered her face and walked away from all of them.
It's unbearable, they all care, but You don't. If You still loved me You would have called me today
Going home after school was a numb feeling Beats never felt, and she usually felt and remembered how she got home in the first place. Being home alone, both her parents at work, made her feel like the emptiness in her heart; meaningless things were there except love. She went to the computer, even if she had homework. She went on her email to see tons of messages about the scene she made, also on MySpace, FaceBook, Gaia, thank god not on LiveJournal or Quizilla.
Listening to hardcore screamo metal and all, she went to sleep. Dreaming so helplessly of Renee. Just thinking about Renee made her cry so hard she could die, which is what she wanted so badly. She woke up, it was 3 AM, she looked at her phone.
Crap, all these missed calls, emails, texts, and none are from You. If You still loved me you'd at least check that I didn't commit suicide
Crying already, she forced her eyes closed, hoping she'd dream of killing herself hundreds of times until she had the guts to actually do it.
Another day at school, painful yet numb as usual. Until girls she used to like and even guys came to talk to her whenever she was alone.
A punk, but popular for her looks and singing voice, girl came up to her. Punk-Girl was friendly to everyone, and no one hated her, everyone loved her, even Beats had a crush on her. Punk-Girl smiled, "Hey."
"I know you're only talking to me for the first time because of what happened."
Punk-Girl looked hurt and guilty, but the smile was still plastered onto her face. "Listen, Beatrice, I heard someone broke up with you."
"I loved her."
"Her?"
"Go ahead and tell someone, I don't care anymore."
Punk-Girl was silent, for a long second. She leaned forward, "What was she like?"
"You might as well ask me to pull a hammer and hit myself in the head." However, Beats did tell her, "She was smart, she's the reason why I wanted to be smart. She was boyish, the first time I saw her I thought she was a boy, but I still didn't care. For 3 years I loved her, and 1 year in those 3 she broke up with me." Beats looked down, she wasn't even bothering putting on make up anymore. "I still love her."
Punk-Girl had tears in her eyes, she wiped a tear, sniffed, but still held a smile. "You're strong, don't do anything rash, Beatrice. You seem nice. There are plenty of-"
Beats stood up, "Don't say that." Beats walked away from Punk-Girl while she was still talking, she was the very first to do that.
If You still loved me, you'd wonder if I still liked Punk-Girl
Days went by, and a guy she used to like more than anyone else other than Renee went up to her, "Beats, stop doing this!"
"Doing what? What am I doing?"
"You're depressed! Who cares if someone dumped you."
Beats stood, "Shut up. I loved her with all my heart for 3 years, no one can ever change that."
He seemed shocked, "You're a dyke?"
"No. I liked you, didn't I?"
"Oh." He was silent for a moment, obviously bothered, not completely disturbed, by the sudden confession of the orientation. He tried to be perky again, "Listen, Beats, seriously, it's hard seeing you like this. I think she would-"
"If She still loved me She would have taken the time to speak to me ever since we broke up."
He was defeated, they both knew it.
Later on, a girl, in which her nickname was Simple, that Beats still kind of liked finally took the courage in talking to the stubborn, walking zombie. "Hey."
Beats was surprised, and not surprised. "Hm."
Simple never started their conversation first, not even if they were partnered in temporary. Simple sat next to Beats, it was study hall. "Listen, I feel really ba-"
"I have 2 ideas of what you're about to say. 1) You feel bad I was broken up with, or 2) You're guilty that you never spoke to me."
Simple was silent. "Both. But I really am sorry."
Beats wanted to smile, but she couldn't. "I'm sorry too. I'm sorry that I like you. Do you know what I used to wonder? You're beautiful, you have a pretty smile, chocolate brown eyes, skinny, breasts, and you're not popular. I think that's why I liked you more than anyone other than Renee and Joshua."
Simple was silent, bothered but trying to be polite. She stood up and left, and Beats felt happy for a moment.
If You still loved me you would ask how I was doing, I wonder how you're doing
After school Beats went on the computer, slept, got up to go to school.
She did that for 5 years. In her senior year of high school she lost her virginity with some manwhore. After it was over he huffed, "You can't tell anybody we did this."
Beats just blinked got dressed, and left. She was at a party that some girl from the popular girl invited her to.
And then she saw her.
Renee
Beats saw Simple, sitting at a table, cup of water in her hand. She seemed miserable. Through the years her friends started abandoning her because her breasts got bigger, like Beats'. And guys started making rumors of fucking her, therefore, she is a rumored slut. However, Beats knew she wasn't.
Beats went to the table and sat down, "Why are you sitting here?"
Simple looked up, a little surprised and scared. Beats still had a crush on Simple, and Simple knew and was still bothered. But she was glad one person in the school didn't hate her. "If you didn't read the weekly gossipers, I'm a whore."
Beats grimaced, "No, you're not. The girls here are haters, the guys are pigs."
Simple responded, "Not to be mean, but I know you're only talking to me because you like me."
"At least I don't think you're a whore. Can you dance?" Beats' mind was still on Renee, but she still wanted Simple to dance with her.
Simple shrugged, "Yeah, but it'll cause my rep of being a slut to go higher."
"You dancing with me won't make you a whore, but it'll give people some horny minds because everyone here besides us is drunk." Beats stood up.
Simple, knowing Beats can move on the floor, nervously muttered, "Compared to you, I suck at dancing."
"I'll make you look good, and again, everyone is drunk."
Simple smiled, "Kay."
Beats and Simple went to the floor with bumping music that you can have sex to played. Beats and Simple were at first dancing, giving each other space between them. Then the floor got more crowded, and Beats skillfully brought Simple's body closer to her own body. Renee left Beats head, and Simple's hot body was on her mind and her body. Simple was stiff from their sudden contact at first, but the music brought her senses down and her body alive.
People were staring, mostly guys. They seemed so horny by how well and long they stared. Suddenly, Beats smashed their lips together, hand on the back on Simple's head. Simple pulled away, covering her lips. But then she removed her hand and kissed Beats. The two made out on the dance floor, and when Beats pulled away, Renee was staring straight at them.
If You still loved me you would leave right now
But Renee walked up to Beats, "Beatrice? Is that you?"
Beats looked at Simple, Simple asked, "Who's this?"
"I'm Renee, Beats and I were..."
"We were nothing." Beats pulled Simple away, feeling the pit of her stomach burning.
Simple asked as they were outside, "What's wrong? Was that-... Was that her?"
Beats turned to Simple, her face close, her voice in a low whisper, "I don't want to talk about her." Beats connected their lips. Her hands gripped Simple's waist, and she pushed her up against the house.
Simple moaned, a little in a whine. But she pulled away, "No, I can't do this. You still love her."
"Simple, but-"
Simple pushed Beats' chest, "You like me, but you love her."
Beats shook her head, eyes clenched, "Stop. Marissa, please stop this." Beats used Simple's real name, meaning she was serious.
Simple shook her head, "It hurts doesn't it? If you were over her, you'd be able to stand it."
Beats opened her eyes, but turned to walk away.
If You still loved me, you would stop me right now
But Renee didn't come, and Beats kept walking on her way home. At school the next day, Beats avoided Simple, and everyone else that remembered or thought they saw she and Simple kiss. Beats dreamt of Renee, still in middle school, and they were saying their feelings. Only to be interrupted by the break up. Flashbacks of Beats old crushes trying to break her ice came to mind, and Simple's words came in, only to make Beats scream in frustration to wake.
For 3 years in her college, she's had sex with at least 1 man and 2 different girls. And still, the only person she loved was Renee, sometimes she wanted to moan her name while having sex with someone else. Beats moved away from LA, all the way to Tokyo, where she met some really sexy model named Haiku, nicknamed Jet.
In bed, Beats noted, she was as fast as a jet. Jet and Beats had a relationship for about 1 month, but after Jet found out Beats was in love with another woman, she thought it'd be best for her to leave.
Straight after, Beats being almost 21 years old, she moved to Seoul where she met some 25 year old dancer and they hit it off in an instant. His stage name was Mouse, he was childish, cute, and definitely Beats' ideal type in men. Beats ended up being pregnant within 2 weeks in their relationship. She hid it at first, afraid, but he found out eventually. He told her it was okay, that he wanted a baby in the first place to prove to his older dance mates that he could get a woman.
That broke Beats' heart. Mouse was a good, cool kid. The both of them were childish, now they had to take care of a baby. One day, after a few months, they fought because Beats brought up the subject of him loving his dance mate. He said he was straight, but his eyes, filled with tears, told a different story. Beats left his place, going to one of his dance mate's place. His stage name was Rough, because he was big and had a nice body.
Once she came in, she asked, "Do you love him?"
He froze, "Wh-what?"
"Do you love him?"
"Beats-"
"Tell me, Ronnie, please."
Rough was looking down when he confessed, "I love him with all my heart."
Tears fell from Beats eyes, but she smiled in happiness. "Then I suggest you two should be together. I lost the one I loved, and I want you two to be together while you two still love each other. I just realized today that you really can't move on or live without that person." Beats left, went back to Mouse's place, packed her things, and left. All that while he was knocked out on the couch.
She took the next few planes all the way to LA, which was a drag, considering that she was pregnant. She went to her younger cousin's house, but they consider themselves sisters. Her sister was shocked to see her sister pregnant.
When she asked, Beats answered, "I'm 8 months pregnant. I left my boyfriend, he loved someone else and that someone loved him also. I want them to be together."
Her sister smiled, she knew Beats was depressed all her life because a girl dumped her. "I hope you find that person, also."
"Thanks."
After about 7 years later, Beats was about 28. And her baby boy was turning 7. His name was Jaehyun Simple Cortez, Mouse's real name and Rough's real name together, with Marissa's nickname, and Beats' last name. Jaehyun was a very childish kid, just like his mother and father. He looked like a perfect mixture, but he had an accent every time he spoke Korean, Spanish, and English. It was cute, and lots of little girls loved him, but he seemed uninterested.
One time, Beats asked her son, "Jae, do you like girls?"
Jaehyun seemed confused, "Yes, I'm supposed to, that's what Zach said when I said Greg was cute."
Greg reminded Beats of Renee, too much, but she responded, "You like Greg, don't you?"
Jaehyun smiled, "We kissed before."
"You did? When?"
Jaehyun was turning red, "Well, it was at school, under the play structure. Remember we got in a fight? Then you and his daddy had to talk to my teacher after school? We decided to make up, and I asked how do you make up. And he said his parents make up by kissing. Then we did. Is that bad?"
Beats smiled, "No, of course that isn't bad. Y'know, your father likes guys."
"Did he like you?"
"I don't know, but his boyfriend was pretty cute."
"Do you like daddy?"
"Yes."
"Do you like girls?"
"Yes."
"That's weird."
Beats chuckled, "Okay, let's eat dinner."
After a few months, Beats was called to Jaehyun's school, she guessed he was in another fight. There were two more mothers in the teacher's class, and she stopped as she saw the mothers.
Renee, and Simple.
If You still loved me, you would be shocked to see me
And Renee was. "Beatrice?"
"Beats?" Simple hugged her, "How are you?"
When she pulled away, Beats noticed Renee with a shocked expression. But Beats answered, "Old."
Simple chuckled, not remembering Renee was Beats true love. The parents sat down. And the teacher began.
"Ms. Cortez, your son Jae and Mrs. Alvorado's son Greg have made a very inappropriate talk in class. And Mrs. Hanson's son Zach was also part of it."
Beats asked, in her somewhat manly voice, "What happened?"
"Jae said it was all right for he and Greg to make up. And they kissed in front of the class, Zach ran away, eyes covered with his hands. Even when I tried to stop them, Greg and Jae told Zach it was okay for them to kiss, guys can like guys. Zach then turned to another boy named Eli and kissed him. I didn't mind the kissing if it were between the opposite sex, but with the same-"
Beats chuckled, no matter how hard she tried to hold it in. Simple did also, and Renee laughed too.
"What is so funny?"
"Mrs. Jack, let me tell you, I told my son it was okay. And, I have kissed these two women before. And Jaehyun's father is gay. So, if you're homophobic, just suspend him from your class or something. I don't give a damn, kissing is unacceptable, but expelling them for talking about guys liking guys is pathetic." Beats stood. "It was nice chuckling at your ignorant rant, I'll be on my way to take my child to Chuck E. Cheese, he deserves it."
Simple stood, holding Beats hand, making electric shocks run through her mind. Renee stood also, and the two followed Beats walk out of the class leaving a stunned teacher.
Beats scoffed, "Bitch. She's lucky I didn't slap her or something."
Simple gushed, "I can't believe you said that, it was amazing. I mean, you were so respectful in school to teachers, but this is hilarious."
"And you're breasts just keep getting bigger."
"I wouldn't talk, yours aren't any smaller."
"Touche, but I can hide it."
Renee coughed, "Beatrice?"
Simple said, "I'll see ya later, Beats, and bye, Mrs. Alvorado." Simple walked away.
Beats heart thumped loudly, even Renee could hear it. Beats asked, "Yeah?"
"Is Jaehyun really your son?"
"Yeah, why is that so hard to believe?"
"I thought you couldn't..."
Beats chuckled humorlessly, "I had sex at least 30 times with other people, but I still loved you through these years. And it seems my son likes Greg, your son. Do you love Him?"
"Greg?"
"Your husband."
Renee was silent.
"Yes?"
Silence.
"No?"
"No, I do. Just...not as much as I wished."
Beats sighed, "Why did you dump me, really, Renee?"
Renee shook her head, "I don't know, I thought we'd have to go our separate ways anyways. You loved children and men, you loved other women."
"I also loved Michael Jackson, still do, but I'd choose you over him any day."
Renee, knowing how obsessed Beats was in love with Michael Jackson, gasped "You-you would?"
"Yeah."
"Even if he liked you back?"
"Yep."
"Even if he asked you out?"
"Yes."
"Even if he wanted babies and marriage?"
"Renee, I love no one else more than I love you. For almost 2 decades I loved you."
Renee felt tears swell, but she held it back. "I-..."
"You regret it, I know. But, you don't love me as much as you wish. If you really loved me, you would have stopped me from leaving your house that day, called me the next day, bothered to see me, to leave the party in senior year, all of that. You don't love me, do you?"
"I want to, I'm guilty. I still like you, but-"
"Stop, Renee. It's okay." Beats took a step back, then turned to walk away. When Beats went to the play structure, she saw her child.
She saw Greg's hand on Jaehyun's cheek, Jaehyun and Greg were kissing passionately for little boys.
It made Beats smile.
Greg pulled away. He had blond hair, silver eyes, light skin, and he was taller than Jaehyun. He whispered in a low voice, "I love you, Jaehyun."
Jaehyun smiled, "I love you, Greg. Is this wrong?"
Greg shook his head, "No, my mom said it wasn't."
"So did mine." Jaehyun turned his head, and gasped, "My mom."
Greg pulled away, turned, and took a step back.
But Beats said to Jaehyun as she took steps closer, "It's time to leave."
Jaehyun smiled, "Okay, mom." Jaehyun looked at Greg, longingly. "Bye."
"Later."
Jaehyun walked away. In the car, Jaehyun said, "Mom, I think I'm in love."
"I think you are too."
"Aren't I too young?"
"If you were too young, you're supposed to like girls. And I wouldn't be taking you to Chuck E. Cheese right now."
Jaehyun smiled, "Thanks, mommy. You're the best."
Beats smiled, thinking of Renee's smile back in middle school, it matched Greg's. "Greg is pretty well, Jaehyun, don't you forget your feelings for him."
"I won't ever, mommy, I love him very much."
-Fin.
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